Going Through Changes lyrics
(Hook)

I m going through changes
I m going through changes

(Verse 1)

Lately, I really feel like I m rolling for delph like Philly
Feel like I m losing control of myself, I sincerely
Apologize if all that I sound like is I am complaining,
But life keeps on complicating
And I m debating on leaving this world this evening
Even my girls can see I�?�?�?m grieving, I try and hide it, but I can�?�?�?t
Why do I act like I m all high and mighty when inside I m dying
I am finally realizing, I need help
Can t do it myself, too weak
Two weeks I ve been having ups and downs, going through peaks and valleys
Dilly-dallying round with the idea of ending this shit right here
I m hating my reflection, I walk around the house tryin to fight mirrors
I can�?�?�?t stand what I look like, here, I look fat
But what do I care? I could give a fuck, only thing I fear is Hailie
I m afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her, shit

(Hook)

I m going through changes
I m going through changes

(Verse 2)

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon
Yeah, dad s in a bad mood, he s always snapping at you
Marshall what happened that you, can t stop with these pills
And you ve fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughing at you
You ve become a problem you re too pussy to tackle
Get up, be a man, stand, a real man would of had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust, nah...
It isn t like dudey to do that, he wouldn t fuckin shoot at nobody, he d fight first
But dwelling on it only makes the night worse
Now I m popping Vics, Percs and methadone pills
"Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it"
Fuckin drug dealers hang around me like yes-men
And they gonna do whatever I says when, I says it
It s in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fucking best friend, so fuck it I guess then...

(Hook)

I m going through changes
I m going through changes

Don t know what I m gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes

(Verse 3)

My friends can t understand this new me, that s understandable, man
But think how bananas you d be, you d be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody s lookin�?�?�? at you, what you want me to do?
I m starting to live like a recluse and the truth is,
Fame is starting to give me an excuse to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theater watching the same damn dvd of the first tour
The last tour, he was still alive and it hurts
So I fast forward, sleeping pills will make me feel alright
And if I m still awake in the middle of the night
I just take a couple more, yeah, you re motherfucking right
I ain t slowing down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah homie, come on dole em out
"Daddy don t you die on me, Daddy better hold your ground!"
Fuck, don t I know the sound of that voice, yeah baby, hold me down

(Hook)

I m going through changes
I m going through changes
Don t know what I�?�?�?m gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes

(Verse 4)

Wake up in the hospital full of tubes, plus somehow I m pulling through
Swear when I come back I ma be bulletproof
I mma do it just for Proof
I think I should state a few facts cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through
I think about the things I would have never got to say to you
I d never get to make it right, so here s what I came to do
Hailie this one is just for you, Whitney and Elaina too
I still love your mother, that will never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way for me to say it
But I swear on everything, I ll do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things to explain
When it rains, guess it pours
Yes it does, wish there wasn t any pain, but I can t pretend there ain t
I ain t placing any blame, I ain t pointing fingers
Heaven knows I never been a saint
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history and just today
I looked at your picture, almost hate to say, I miss you, sub-consciously
Wish it didn t end this way, but I just had to get away
Don t know why, I don t know what else to say, I guess I m�?�?�?

(Hook)

I m going through changes
Don t know what I m gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes
I m going through changes